On to the Next

Crushed

Defeated

Restless

Feel tested

Should’ve never stressed it

No more feeling like I’m under the pressure of being attacked

Stupid of you to think I want you back

On to the next

Moving forward is the mission

No need for me to ask for your permission

Hated feeling the suspicion

You executed

Having you apart of my life is not included

With how I want the future to be

Should’ve been careful with me

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Patterns

Active on social media

Half ass stories

Excuses

So “tired”

But still on social media though

Been “busy”

But still on social media though

Nothing is adding up

Patterns

Ghosting for hours

Routines

Predictable

No need to ask questions

The signs are there

I’m less important on your list of interest

It’s cool though

I’ll rather distant myself

The truth revealed itself

You played yourself

Thinking I was going to stick around for the bullshit

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Violence in America

Every time I look at the news or get on social media I see some type of new crime happening. Mainly the crime consist of someone is getting shot. Innocent people are getting killed. It’s a shame that the country who is supposed to be united is getting torn apart by violence itself. America is turning into a place you would less likely want to be at this point. It shouldn’t be this way. No one should have to live in fear because the majority of America is inhumane. THE VIOLENCE HAS TO STOP!

People here always want to talk about how disgusted or sad they are about the violence but still don’t do anything about it. Obviously, some of them don’t care as much as they say. Then again individuals have their own ways of making a positive change in the world. Thank God for the people who do take action. We still need more people who stand up against the violence and isn’t afraid to speak up. We have been quiet for too long.

AREN’T YOU TIRED OF IT?

How long is it going to take to open people eyes to realize that gun violence itself is a huge problem. Everyone wants it for protection which I understand that point of view. The only thing about having a gun is the group of individuals who use it for the wrong reasons and take advantage of it. Aren’t you tired of seeing innocent people dying? Or worrying about if your LOVED ONES or YOU are going to live to see another day. This is truly sickening to the stomach. Sometimes I believe it is good that the majority of us get to see how cruel the world is. This is a way to spark someone to do better and make a change.

Then we have the bad side of certain people viewing the violence. You know we live in a monkey see and monkey do (copy what others are doing) type of world. They love copying the negative but slow on trying to copy positive actions.

You see it’s a back and forth situation with the violence because everyone processes it differently. I hope people will come together more to stop the chaos that’s going on. It shouldn’t have got this bad anyway. What’s your thoughts of the violence in America or in the world in general? Do you constantly worry what’s going to happen next? Do you believe there will be a change in the near future? No thoughts or opinions are off limits. Remember to be respectful to others if you do share your opinions though.

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Why a Person Grows Bitter Inside

A person doesn’t wake up one day and say “oh I will be bitter today” it’s always a story behind a bitter person. Yes, it’s hard to see past the individual bitterness but take your time to look deeper into why they act that way. One of the main reasons they may feel resentful is from some type of hurt they endure from the past or present. Not everyone is forgiving when they experience a heartbreaking situation. The happiest person in the world could go through a hurtful situation that may turn them into a bitter person. Like I mention not too long ago a hurt person grows bitter from past or present experiences.

Let’s say a woman or man went through a relationship where they loved someone wholeheartedly then their significant other cheated on them or does something to cross their loyalty. The man or woman who got crossed never got the apology they deserved or simply chose not to forgive the person who damages them. As days, months, and years went by they kept the pain buried deep in their heart or soul. When a person holds all that pain inside of course they are going to turn into a toxic human being. It’s only so much a person can hold in. Let’s not act like bitterness randomly appears out of nowhere and consume a person. There is a reason behind everything.

Now, think about this scenario a woman name Teresa came up with a business plan that would benefit everyone around the world. Teresa confides in her business partner about the plan. The business partner took her plan and took all the credit for it. Teresa wasn’t too happy about how everything took place. She felt humiliated and stupid for trusting someone with her golden plan. That was a slap in the face. Now she is stuck in a situation with seeing her ex business partner living off the luxuries of the business idea she came up with. No one ever cared about how Teresa felt. So, what do you think she did? Fought to take what was hers then when that didn’t work out she grew a grudge against everyone. That grudge led her to grow bitter inside.

Are you understanding the point I am getting at? As people, we are quick to say someone is bitter or an evil person by nature. Sometimes that is not exactly true. That one bitter person was probably once a good-hearted person until they let their emotions or past experiences take control of their life. No one wants to live a miserable life. Like I mentioned at the beginning of this article I stated, “A person doesn’t wake up one day and say, “oh I will be bitter today.” Just remind yourself to be more understanding with someone. But also, don’t let someone take advantage of you either.

Do you know someone who is bitter inside? Were you understanding with the person or you kept your distance away from them? If you don’t know anyone like this can you answer this question at one point were you bitter inside from a past situation? Feel free to share your story or thoughts in the comment section.

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Suicidal

Suicidal…

What does that even mean?

A person who wants to kill themselves from all the pain they are enduring?

A person who wants “attention?’

Someone who is experiencing depression and anxiety that pushes them to be suicidal?

A person feeling numb from the world and wants to disappear?

A person who fakes their smiles so no one would discover their sadness?

Suicidal…

A person who is heartbroken because they will never be with the person they want and can’t live without

Suicidal…

Something that happens in the spur of the moment because you’ve reached your breaking point

Suicidal…

They told you that you were strong

But are you?

Suicidal…

The “thing” you thought of but couldn’t manage to…

Pull the trigger

Overdosed on the pills

Slit your wrist

Drown yourself in the water

Hang yourself in that bathroom or bedroom

Suicidal…

That little devil talking to you to give you the courage to do it

The cry for help because now everyone will see

The thought of finally being free is the only thing that sits in your mind

Suicidal…

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It’s You I Want

Why do I crave your presence so much?

Laying in bed thinking about you…

Can’t sleep

You’re stuck in my mind

Never thought you’ll be the person I would want so bad

Too bad I can’t let you know

Deep down inside I know the thought of us probably won’t happen

I accept that though

Maybe we can try in another lifetime

What if you’re feeling the same way I do?

Nooo you’re probably not

You probably never gave it a thought

or have you?

You see I am going back and forth with myself about it

Only time will show what your intentions are or were

Never would’ve thought you may complete the piece that’s missing inside of me

It’s you I want…

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A Strong Presence in the Room

Have you ever been home alone and felt another presence in the room? Like the feeling was so strong you knew for sure someone else is in the room with you. If you don’t understand what I mean. Basically, I am asking have you ever been in a room alone and it feels like someone else is there too. The crazy part about it is the fact you can feel them but not see them. I always believed it is a dead family member lingering in the room. Maybe if it’s not a dead family member. It could be the presence of a person who used to live in the house before you moved in. I bet this is probably creeping you out. You’re feeling a little paranoid just by reading this. Don’t worry I won’t frighten you too bad.

If you had this experience before does it feel weird to you? Maybe you even thought you were going a little crazy. Trust me you weren’t going crazy at all. The energy you were feeling was real. The only reason I am saying that is because I had the same experience. No, I haven’t seen anything float across the room. All I kept feeling is a person present in the room. Another funny thing about it is the fact that this happens randomly.

Let’s think of another theory. The presence could possibly be the spirit of God coming to visit you. Maybe it’s a way of him letting you know he’s still there for you. Sometimes we need that reminder. That probably didn’t cross your mind until now. This gives you something to think about. There are times we get caught up in worldly problems and we sometimes forget all we need to do is pray to God for help.

Do you have any theories on why sometimes you feel a strange presence in the room? If you had a similar or exact experience share how it made you feel. Did you get scared? Also, let me know if the two theories I mentioned came to mind as you were reading.

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Got Back into The Groove of Reading

Lately, I’ve been getting back into the groove of reading again. I’m so excited that I put myself back into the habit of reading again. No, I wasn’t at a point where I hated reading. I just never seem to have time for it once I start focusing on other projects that I enjoyed doing. Plus, my mind was clutter with so many distractions I couldn’t focus on reading a book if my life depended on it.

Honestly, it made me feel some type of way. I wasn’t used to having a hard time reading a book. I guess I’ve been so caught up with social media that it tainted my focus a little bit. Now that I’m back reading books I feel like myself again.

For those of you that don’t know reading was/is my first love. Ever since I was a child I was in love with reading. I will always remember using money that I got from my mom or family members and go to the store to buy books. Being an adult now I have a bad habit of buying books every chance I get lol.  I guess you can say it’s not a bad habit though.

Another thing I thought about is maybe I should start doing book reviews on my blog. I already started it on my YouTube channel and I realize some people do enjoy it. I don’t know if you have noticed I did recently post a book review on the last book I read. If you want to read the review click here. On my blog, I probably will post a book review here and there though.

Anyways, it feels so good to read again. Reading is my escape from reality. It relaxes me just like writing. I have a question for you. Have you ever had a phrase where you stop reading and felt some type of way? or Do you enjoy reading now? If so, what are you currently reading or just got finish reading?

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My Random Thoughts 💭 February 7, 2018

My head is always full of random thoughts. Sometimes I believe I think more than an average person. There are times when my thoughts drive me crazy 😜. In this article, you’ll read my random thoughts and get a little taste of what’s in my head.

Why am I so random?

Why is it raining today?

Why can’t I relax my mind?

What book should I read?

Why can’t I focus on one book?

When is the mail coming?

What is something fun I can do?

Why does this popcorn have a nasty aftertaste?

What should I blog about today?

Why does the song The Weekend have that random snippet song at the end talking about fire?

Yasss my song came on! (Focus by H.E.R)

Why is it so cold in my house?

What’s going on with the heater?

Since you read my random thoughts for today. What are some thoughts that ran through your head today?

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A Loyal Man That’s What I Want

A loyal man

A man in love with me only

A man to care about my feelings

A man who understands my thoughts & feelings

Has goals for himself

Never breaks my heart any type of way

Where is my loyal man?

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