It’s funny how people think they know what’s going on with you just from what you show or tell them. They love to say slick comments because “they already know what’s going on in your life.” You know what let me get right into the point. I always have to pretend that everything is good with me. In reality, it’s not that way. I have to deal with my mood swings, anxiety, and depression. There are so many days and nights I cry out of frustration, hurt, and anger. Most people around me don’t understand how hard it is to deal with that. Plus, trying to balance having a “normal” life.
Then I don’t have anyone I fully trust or that understands what I go through internally. I’ve tried to express how I feel about things too many times to certain people in my life. It doesn’t work out because they act like they don’t care. That’s why I keep things to myself. Yes, I know it’s not good to keep everything bottled up inside. What else am I suppose to do?
I guess writing helps me pour out my feelings. It’s probably why God gave me this gift to write. It helps me to release bottled up feelings and connect to my readers. That’s the bright side of everything. People just don’t know how strong I am. Not everyone has a strong state of mind to turn everything negative in their life into something positive.
This is why I try not to focus on the negative in my life. I hate feeling upset and emotional. Everything is better when I stick with being positive through every situation I deal with. It’s true when they say everything happens for a reason. I know in the near future I will find my happiness. I can’t wait to life my life the way I want it.
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