New Changes in Me

Lately, I’ve been noticing some changes in me. As I take each day one step at a time I can see growth within me. I’m truly finding myself. My journey started in 2017 and it continues to progress through 2018. I stopped talking to plenty people. They didn’t belong in my life at all. It surprises you when you separate yourself from useless individuals how much your life will change for good. My main focus is on myself. I got tired of being there for others and they barely returned the favor. Call me selfish if you want to but I don’t care. I’m at the point where I have to do what’s best for me and make myself happy. Life is so much better when all you have to do is focus on your own happiness.

As I go through my life changes I’m growing into the person I always wanted to be. I even discover new things that I enjoy. It feels so good to be there for myself. I mean I never depend on anyone for a shoulder to cry on. I tried to give some people a benefit of the doubt. Each person I met failed me. It’s such a shame. Some may think I’m acting different or funny for not communicating with them anyone. It doesn’t matter to me because they should’ve appreciated me while I was in their life. Yes, I am going to speak highly of myself. Deep down inside I know I am a special person that anyone would want in their life.

Another thing I want to mention is there are a good bit of individuals who misunderstood me. They believe they “know so much about me.” I always laughed at myself how wrong they were. I NEVER met anyone who took their time to get to know the REAL me! So, I don’t want to hear anybody else say they know me so well or at least think they know what I am all about.

As I close out this post like I mention earlier I am happy with the person I am becoming. I’m learning what’s my true purpose is in this world. At this point in my life, I believe in myself stronger than I did before. I’m happy with the goals I am trying to reach and what I have achieved so far. If you took your time to read this thanks for reading. I hope you also find happiness within yourself.

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Deadly Phine: A Tale of Urban Terror Book Review

Before I start this book review I want to thank Darrell King for giving me the opportunity to read and review his book. In this book review, it has a few spoilers. Continue reading if you don’t mind reading the spoilers…

Synopsis

Valentino is a drug lord who has HIV/AIDS with the goal of spreading the virus throughout the inner city. He does this to help with the government secret organization (the Illuminati) to reduce America’s black community. Valentino is the perfect guy to do this job. Women can’t resist him, and he doesn’t care about spreading the deadly virus because he does it for the money.

Overall Thoughts on the Book

When I started reading this book I was confused, and it was hard for me to get into it. As I kept reading, further along, I grew to like it a little. Honestly, it had a twist on it I wasn’t used to when I read urban fiction books. I didn’t mind though. The book gives you important and interesting information about the history of HIV/AIDS. Also, as I was reading the way the character was talking sound a little like southern slang to me. By reading the ending of the story Valentino is truly unstoppable. He’ll do anything to survive and for money.

Thoughts on the Characters

Valentino: I respect this man hustle, but I don’t agree with the things he is doing. Especially with pimping young females. The sickening part about him is the fact that he spreads the virus to these young women without them knowing. The only time I did like him a little when he was warning Dr. Goddard not to mess with the young hoes because more than likely they have the virus because he had sex with them. It’s disgusting how he spread the virus too! He knew how to pick the right victims though.

Dr. Goddard: I don’t blame him for feeling unsafe when he was staying with Valentino for a while. Sometimes I get paranoid and I know for a fact I couldn’t do that secret assignment. There are moments when he did act a little uppity though. He didn’t have to judge Valentino just because of the lifestyle he’s living.

Meredith: Her death sounded so painful. It made me hurt inside as I was reading the details of her death. Oh well, she caused everything on herself. She had a lot of lovers but that’s part of the game. She even caught feelings for Valentino which messed her up too because he wasn’t trying to have a future with her. Love will make you do crazy things for real!

Wilhelm: I am on his side when he was wondering why Meredith is messing around with Valentino knowing he has the virus. Then again, it wasn’t like their marriage was perfect anyway. I don’t know why he got depressed about things going wrong in his personal life because he knew his job would cause chaos. Good things don’t last forever.

Overall, the characters in the book played major roles in the book. Everyone had their own agenda. I could I understand their reasons though because I looked at everything from their point of view.

I will give this book a 4 out of 5 stars. The reason why I rated this book only four stars because it had me confused a little bit at first. It did have a good storyline though.  I loved the fact the information about HIV/AIDs were given in the book through each chapter. Also, the author was good at giving strong details of the scenes throughout the book. I recommend everyone to check this book out. If you do get a chance to read it tell me your thoughts on it. This book is suitable for a mature audience.

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Got Back into The Groove of Reading

Lately, I’ve been getting back into the groove of reading again. I’m so excited that I put myself back into the habit of reading again. No, I wasn’t at a point where I hated reading. I just never seem to have time for it once I start focusing on other projects that I enjoyed doing. Plus, my mind was clutter with so many distractions I couldn’t focus on reading a book if my life depended on it.

Honestly, it made me feel some type of way. I wasn’t used to having a hard time reading a book. I guess I’ve been so caught up with social media that it tainted my focus a little bit. Now that I’m back reading books I feel like myself again.

For those of you that don’t know reading was/is my first love. Ever since I was a child I was in love with reading. I will always remember using money that I got from my mom or family members and go to the store to buy books. Being an adult now I have a bad habit of buying books every chance I get lol.  I guess you can say it’s not a bad habit though.

Another thing I thought about is maybe I should start doing book reviews on my blog. I already started it on my YouTube channel and I realize some people do enjoy it. I don’t know if you have noticed I did recently post a book review on the last book I read. If you want to read the review click here. On my blog, I probably will post a book review here and there though.

Anyways, it feels so good to read again. Reading is my escape from reality. It relaxes me just like writing. I have a question for you. Have you ever had a phrase where you stop reading and felt some type of way? or Do you enjoy reading now? If so, what are you currently reading or just got finish reading?

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Homewrecker by Dwayne S. Joseph Book Review

Before I get deeper into this book review. I want to say this was the absolute best book I ever read! I enjoyed reading it. This is an urban fiction book you need to take a chance reading. Dwayne S. Joseph is a great author!

Synopsis

Lisette is an attractive woman who knows how to seduce men very well. She gets hired to ruin relationships that’s why they call her the “homewrecker.” This job provides her with a wealthy source of income. Everything is going well for her until a strange caller says they need Lisette help or something bad will happen to her.

Sharing my Thoughts

When I started reading this book it immediately caught my attention. The author did a good job of grabbing your attention on the first page of the book. Honestly, I thought the book would focus on at least one main relationship, but it didn’t. It threw in other relationships and connections with the circle of main characters which expanded the good drama in the book. There was no confusion about trying to identify the characters throughout the book scenes. The flow of the book went at a great pace. There wasn’t any rushed or dragged out parts.

Thoughts on the Characters

Lisette: She is a very strong woman. The control and power she has fit her character. I agreed with her when she said: “Relationships make you too dependent.” I connected with that line on a deep level.

Marlene: She is a sweet person. I didn’t view her as a weak character. She had a strong bone in her body, but she needed Lisette to push that out of her. I hated she cared what other people thought of her. Even though I hated it I still looked at her point of view. Marlene was always used to everyone judging her all her life so that’s why her mindset was tainted. She’s the type of friend you would need by yourself. Lisette gave her hell at some points, but she still was there by her side.

Kyra Rogers: She deserved everything that happened to her. Kyra should’ve known her “good life” wouldn’t last forever. She did too much dirt to people. Karma got her good. Dwayne did a very good job writing Kyra outcome. She’s full of jealousy to me.

Myles: He was so caught up in his own world of distractions. Most of the situations that happened to him would’ve never existed if he paid more attention to the outside world. I kind of felt bad for him with his luck with women. Then again, now I feel like he brought the last marriage disaster on himself. How are you so blind when it comes to gold digging hoes?

Steve: He’s such a nasty bastard! Nothing made me have respect for him at all. Steve is selfish, disrespectful, and a punk. This man wants to do so much dirty work but doesn’t want to pay for the consequences.

Conclusion

There weren’t any flaws in this book. The whole story is well written. I give this book 5 out of 5 stars. If you’re looking for a good urban fiction book to read I recommend this book for you to read. You won’t be disappointed at all. Also, this book has explicit language so it would be good for adults to read. If you have read this book before. Share your thoughts about it in the comment section below.

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Good morning Happy Valentines Day!

Good morning readers how are you this morning? Oh yeah, Happy Valentines Day! Are you doing anything special today? I’m not doing anything special. Guess what! I’m sick I don’t know where I got germs from. I found out yesterday I have a virus. It sucks to be sick. Hopefully, it doesn’t stay in my system for too long. What are some topics you want me to write about today? Comment some suggestions down below. I want everyone to have a good day! If you’re on the other side of the world goodnight.

QOTD: ” It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.” – Confucius

Question of the day: What’s your Valentine’s Day tradition?  

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It’s About You Again…

Yes, this poem is about you

It’s funny how you are stuck in your selfish ways

You feel like your problems are bigger than mine

Have you ever took the time to focus on my needs?

I know if I leave you then you’ll crumble

I’m the one who made you!

After numerous times getting MY HEARTBROKEN

I still stayed…

I never understood why though

The deep anger I feel for you grows more inside

All you’re good at is leaving me heartbroken

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Rushing into Relationships Isn’t Always a Good Idea

Rushing into relationships isn’t always a good idea. You didn’t take the time to learn the other person’s personality. Did you even figure out what you want out of a relationship before you rushed in one? Maybe you did, and everything worked out fine.

Let’s think about the bad outcome like things didn’t work out. For the first month, you’re in heaven and in love with your partner. Then during the next month, you see how rocky things start to get. The both of you seem to argue about everything under the sun. Your “puppy love” turns into hate towards each other. Everything you planned with the person erases from your mind.

After a while, you start to doubt rushing to get into a relationship with them. You’re even embarrassed that you proved everyone right that told you not to rush things. Relationships aren’t supposed to be rushed. In the beginning, it’s fine to take your time with the person you like. That’s what they have the “talking stage” for.

Give yourself time to enjoy the person before you get fully committed to them. This is the time to chill. The point I’m trying to make is if you’re rushing a relationship with someone. It probably won’t work out. Life is about going with the flow of things. If fate wants you with the person you have feelings for. Then you will end up in a relationship with them.

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She Waits in the Park Part 2

Before you read part 2 make sure you first part 1 of She Waits in the Park.

Part 2 Begins

Josh is down on one knee waiting for Melissa response. She hesitates for a while. Melissa wants to say yes but she’ll be wrong. There is a confession she needs to make. How can she tell him that she’s pregnant with twins by his father? Yes, you read that right. Melissa is pregnant with Josh’s father baby. Melissa starts to speak “Josh, I have to tell you something.” What is it, Melissa? Josh said. “I’m pregnant baby but… Josh gets excited “I can’t believe you’re pregnant! The baby came at a perfect time. What else you have to tell me?” Melissa tells Josh she’s pregnant by his father.

After Josh heard that come out of Melissa’s mouth he wanted to rip her head off. At that moment his world crashes down. Melissa could see how hurt and angry Josh was. She felt guilty but relieved the secret is finally out. Baby, I know you’re hurting. I didn’t me– “Melissa would you shut the hell up? How could you do this to me? That’s the lowest thing you could ever do to someone!” Josh yells out in frustration. Everyone in the park is staring now. Josh walks off and rushes to his car. Melissa gets up to chase after him. She’s moving too slow to catch up with him.

Josh isn’t finished yet

Josh gets in his car and starts speeding to his dad house. He couldn’t wait to curse his dad out. This situation hurt Josh real deep. Josh gets to his father house. He gets to the front door and starts banging on it. “OPEN UP THE DAMN DOOR!” No one is coming to the door. This is weird because it never takes longer than 2 minutes for someone to come to the door. Josh decides to try his luck. His right-hand turns the doorknob. To his surprise, the door opens. When he walks in he sees his dad dead on the floor laying in a pool of blood…

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15 Inspirational Quotes You’ll Love

You always need some type of inspiration. Whether it’s from your friends, family, or Google. If you’re a lover of quotes here are some of the best inspirational quotes you’ll ever read.

1) “When you have a dream, you’ve got to grab it and never let go.” – Carol Burnett

2) “Find out who you are and be that person. That’s what your soul was put on this Earth to be. Find that truth, live that truth and everything else will come.” – Ellen DeGeneres

3) “Change your thoughts and you change your world.” – Norman Vincent Peale

4) “It is never too late to be what you might have been.” -George Eliot

5) “If opportunity doesn’t knock, build a door.” -Milton Berle

6) “Put your heart, mind, and soul into even your smallest acts. This is the secret of success.” – Swami Sivananda

7) “Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.” – Nathaniel Hawthorne

8) “Reach for it. Push yourself as far as you can.” – Christa McAuliffe

9) “Be brave enough to live life creatively. The creative place where no one else has ever been.” – Alan Alda

10) “In a gentle way, you can shake the world.” – Mahatma Gandhi

11) “Your big opportunity may be right where you are now.” Napoleon Hill

12) “Better to be called something positive and inspirational than something negative.” – Donnie Yen

13) “Always do your best. What you plant now, you will harvest later.” – Og Mandino

14) “Love the moment and the energy of that moment will spread beyond all boundaries.” – Corita Kent

15) “Space is an inspirational concept that allows you to dream big.” – Peter Diamandis

Inspirational quotes are always good to look back at when you need some inspiration. If you enjoyed the quotes you read. Which one is your favorite? Let me know in the comment section.

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My Random Thoughts 💭 February 7, 2018

My head is always full of random thoughts. Sometimes I believe I think more than an average person. There are times when my thoughts drive me crazy 😜. In this article, you’ll read my random thoughts and get a little taste of what’s in my head.

Why am I so random?

Why is it raining today?

Why can’t I relax my mind?

What book should I read?

Why can’t I focus on one book?

When is the mail coming?

What is something fun I can do?

Why does this popcorn have a nasty aftertaste?

What should I blog about today?

Why does the song The Weekend have that random snippet song at the end talking about fire?

Yasss my song came on! (Focus by H.E.R)

Why is it so cold in my house?

What’s going on with the heater?

Since you read my random thoughts for today. What are some thoughts that ran through your head today?

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