You don’t know about my silent cries at night. You’ll never understand how much I still hurt inside from your mistakes. I’m so damage to the point I don’t think I can love anyone anymore. There is an emptiness in my heart. Nothing can make it feel whole again. Sometimes I blame myself for not leaving when I had ways out. Every time I tell you the truth you can handle it. I can’t stick around with someone who damages my heart. You were my first heartbreak. I was never the since that day or shall I say night. As I’m writing this my face is stained with tears. That shit stills hurt! Every time it replays in my head. The pain still feels fresh in my heart. Even though I want someone special in my life. I don’t think I’ll be able to love them like I want to. I’ll be stuck in fear that they will intentionally break my heart. I hate that it has to be this way.

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